Is it just me or is it a mom thing? I’ve been sick with a head & chest cold for over 3 weeks now and when I take a little bit of time to relax and try to get better I feel so guilty. In the 3 weeks that I’ve been sick it went through the whole family as well. Everyone else had it for about 3 or 4 days and got better, I think the reason that I’m still sick is because I just don’t take the time to recuperate. I made sure that when everyone else was sick that they got the rest that they needed but I just can’t do that myself. There’s just too much that needs to get done.
So any way this past Saturday I woke up feeling pretty terrible so I decided when I put the kids down for naps that I would take the time to rest myself. I didn’t try to get any work done or do any house hold chores, I just did my spiritual reading and relaxed (well as much as I could anyway – the oldest kept coming out of his room). Then later that night when the kids were in bed, instead of going to work I just sat and watched t.v., this is something that very rarely happens. If I am sitting watching t.v. I usually either have work in front of me or I’m folding laundry – I’m never idle.
As I was sitting resting I felt so guilty – I should be doing something. There’s just so much to do, that I shouldn’t just sit and relax. Guilty, guilty, guilty. Now why is that? I’ve been unsuccessfully fighting a cold for 3 weeks, felt miserable and yet I felt guilty for resting and trying to look after me a little bit. In reality the amount of time that I actually took to relax was about 2 hours total, but I did feel much better the next day.
I know that I need to look after myself and rest regularly if I’m going to be the best person (mom , wife, friend, contractor) I can be. I guess this is just one more area that I have to put more focus and work on.
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